The Next Chapter

What’s your next, most pressing deadline? Are you excited, stressed, or ambivalent about it? What’s the first thing you’d like to do once you’re done with it?

The big thing I have coming up that I am both excited and stressed about is the end of my Associates program.  I am currently in the last semester of my program and come January 5th I’ll be OFFICIALLY DONE!!!  But just done with this program.  I decided I would go back and pursue my Bachelors degree at a different school.

It has been a long time coming.  At least it feels like it’s been a long time.  I enjoyed school when I was back in Colorado because it was campus classes.  Online classes are exhausting.  So much work and you are responsible for all of the work yourself.  No teacher to teach you.  No classmates to bounce ideas off of.  I hope I never have to do it again.

That said, it was great to see how well I could do.  People around me saw my potential so much more than I had been able to.  I was scared to go back because I didn’t think I would finish let alone succeed.  Now that I am almost done I am scared of that next step.  Re-entering the job force.  I haven’t had a job in much too long.  Since my son was maybe 2.  He’ll be 17 in March.  The prospect of going out and finding a career of my own is a scary thing.  I’ve almost talked myself into looking for a help desk job that I can do from home.  But honestly it isn’t what I really want to do.

It’s all almost over now… time to pull up my big girl panties and take a step into the next chapter of my life.